Dear Blogger,
I just found out how picky passport people are. What difference does it make if my physician's letter stating my current status is about a year old. I wish they had mentioned it in the original correspondence when I found out the Passport lady at my local post office made me fill out the wrong renewal form. Very frustrating. I have emailed both my endocrinologist and primary care physician to ask them to write me both a letter stating that I am well into transcending into the person I am meant to be seen as, and I am so much more happier for it. Paperwork is a drag,
Also this week while I'm hoping to get that done, I will also go to the Wells Fargo near the Kaiser I go to because it is very convenient, to get my details updated with my official documents. I plan on managing my Wells Fargo account more closely now that my waiver as a student for Union Bank is ending, I will need to pull all my money out soon, preferably before October so I can start connecting my Wells Fargo bank to my paypal. My parents have always managed that account which is supposed to be managed by me now since I'm of legal age and I do not need them to manage them for me.
I hope to be able to get my general resume re-written to be more targeted several times for several places that are hiring near me. Especially for non-"Black Friday" stores that are within walking distance from my area. Part-time would be great since I need a job that will work with my medical needs and alternate sources of income that I rely on to save up for events I plan to go to in the near and distant future. Masters just doesn't seem like an option right now because of debt. But I am also looking into scholarships that cater to potential grad students as well. But my priority is medical needs and finding a temporary part-time job. (I say temporary because I don't see myself working retail permanently, just until I can further my education once I pay off a good amount of debt.)
I may eventually post pictures relating to my posts eventually but for now I'm just dealing with life as it comes by. I hope things get better soon so I don't have to worry so much but right now there are many things happening even as I get stuck on one thing, I still have to put my best foot forward. I may end up remaking a second blog for my fictional OCs (original characters if you are not familiar with internet lingo) which will be NSFW, considering the character I've created is an incubus. His name is Ethan Ashburgh, and he still needs some development but I shall be looking at the not-quite-there yet drafts I've uploaded onto facebook notes just to refresh my memory. Back stories are difficult and as many people I know do, I have this vision of putting my OCs through these horrible situations that they must overcome in order to develop their characters. But more emotional than physical. I'm quite partial to unrequited love. (not so much as the "friendzone" type thing but the individual you like, has their eyes on someone else trope. ) It was influenced by my early days of RPing with some characters on MSN messenger, but my days of that are long past.
That's it for now. I hope to update in a few days or over the weekend whenever I have something interesting to share.
Monday, September 12, 2016
Saturday, September 10, 2016
Chaotic Reflections - #2 - 9/10/2016
Dear Blogger,
It has been over 3 weeks since I've last updated. A lot of things have been happening, some good, some bad. I almost got kidnapped by a cult who had coerced me into walking into their cold, unfeeling building, and tried to offer me cookies and coffee whilst I take their "free personality" test claiming it would only take 6 minutes. NO. DON'T DO IT. It is a LIE. The next time these people approach me on my way to Kaiser Permanente, I will ignore them and try to forget the BS they made me go through because I was "too nice" to refuse. It is quite terrifying how they guilt you into having all these flaws that make you human. They try way too hard to push your program onto you to get you to buy. You think you can fool this Pokemon fanboy again just because you complimented my eevee? I won't fall for that trick twice. I know the telltale signs of your so-called non-profit organization. I know I'm probably just another number or statistic in a quota from all that money you make. . .You claim to be non-profit but your facilities say otherwise. Or there are just a bunch of desperate people who buy into this crap. This is probably something I will bring up in group when I go in there. Sunglasses and feigning blindness may be required next time since they recognize my face. I threw away all the pamphlets they gave me to supposedly look over. They literally told me their program can do better than what REAL certified therapists do. (I'm sure I don't have to say the name of this so called organization whilst I rant. I'm sure those of you familiar might already know who they are.)
Let me tell you something I overheard in there while I was taking my sweet time with my so-called personality test. They GUILTED an older woman they were interviewing there because she had been single for 30 years. That is insane. Being with a partner should -not- dictate your main purpose or happiness in life. YOU decide that for yourself. They don't WANT you to think before you join their classes they recommend for you because they're in this for the money. I had to keep saying over and over that I was too broke and busy to go in for any of their classes. Non-profit my ass lol. I kept saying I would think about it and decide when I got employment because they are not worth asking my parents money for. Yeah there are some famous celebrities who subscribe to this. . .bullshit but they have money to throw away on that kind of crap. It might work for some people, but there is something unhuman about the whole experience. They try to get all up in your face, like a life coach/therapist but no man I didn't take the cookies or the coffee I am well aware of the bullshit you are feeding me right now. They do everything a therapist ISN'T supposed to do like try and rush you into a decision that ends up in them making money even if its supposed to be "affordable" for their clients. I am aware that this makes me look like a paranoid skeptic, but better safe than sorry right?
However, they were polite so I just wanted to leave before they tried pushing anything else on me.
For the good part of this week, I finally got to donate plasma (for monetary incentives)! I would like to thank Grant, the nurse that helped me sort out my paperwork because of a certain doctor that neglected to approve me of all my medication that my primary physician listed on their form. . .he got in touch with their main doctor so the previous doctor's decision was overridden by the part-time one so it's all good. I am able to donate twice a week, I donated the first time on Thursday and today I am planning on making the trip there again since they can't use my donation until they receive my second donation of the week. This post is getting a bit long, so good things about the week before this week will be updated in a post called 1.5 since it happened between the first post and this week. I'll probably make that update some time tonight if I'm not too tired after my donation.
-Kae
It has been over 3 weeks since I've last updated. A lot of things have been happening, some good, some bad. I almost got kidnapped by a cult who had coerced me into walking into their cold, unfeeling building, and tried to offer me cookies and coffee whilst I take their "free personality" test claiming it would only take 6 minutes. NO. DON'T DO IT. It is a LIE. The next time these people approach me on my way to Kaiser Permanente, I will ignore them and try to forget the BS they made me go through because I was "too nice" to refuse. It is quite terrifying how they guilt you into having all these flaws that make you human. They try way too hard to push your program onto you to get you to buy. You think you can fool this Pokemon fanboy again just because you complimented my eevee? I won't fall for that trick twice. I know the telltale signs of your so-called non-profit organization. I know I'm probably just another number or statistic in a quota from all that money you make. . .You claim to be non-profit but your facilities say otherwise. Or there are just a bunch of desperate people who buy into this crap. This is probably something I will bring up in group when I go in there. Sunglasses and feigning blindness may be required next time since they recognize my face. I threw away all the pamphlets they gave me to supposedly look over. They literally told me their program can do better than what REAL certified therapists do. (I'm sure I don't have to say the name of this so called organization whilst I rant. I'm sure those of you familiar might already know who they are.)
Let me tell you something I overheard in there while I was taking my sweet time with my so-called personality test. They GUILTED an older woman they were interviewing there because she had been single for 30 years. That is insane. Being with a partner should -not- dictate your main purpose or happiness in life. YOU decide that for yourself. They don't WANT you to think before you join their classes they recommend for you because they're in this for the money. I had to keep saying over and over that I was too broke and busy to go in for any of their classes. Non-profit my ass lol. I kept saying I would think about it and decide when I got employment because they are not worth asking my parents money for. Yeah there are some famous celebrities who subscribe to this. . .bullshit but they have money to throw away on that kind of crap. It might work for some people, but there is something unhuman about the whole experience. They try to get all up in your face, like a life coach/therapist but no man I didn't take the cookies or the coffee I am well aware of the bullshit you are feeding me right now. They do everything a therapist ISN'T supposed to do like try and rush you into a decision that ends up in them making money even if its supposed to be "affordable" for their clients. I am aware that this makes me look like a paranoid skeptic, but better safe than sorry right?
However, they were polite so I just wanted to leave before they tried pushing anything else on me.
For the good part of this week, I finally got to donate plasma (for monetary incentives)! I would like to thank Grant, the nurse that helped me sort out my paperwork because of a certain doctor that neglected to approve me of all my medication that my primary physician listed on their form. . .he got in touch with their main doctor so the previous doctor's decision was overridden by the part-time one so it's all good. I am able to donate twice a week, I donated the first time on Thursday and today I am planning on making the trip there again since they can't use my donation until they receive my second donation of the week. This post is getting a bit long, so good things about the week before this week will be updated in a post called 1.5 since it happened between the first post and this week. I'll probably make that update some time tonight if I'm not too tired after my donation.
-Kae
Friday, August 19, 2016
Chaotic Reflection #1 - 8/19/2016
Hello Blogger/Potential Employers,
This is probably my bajillionth time (I know that's not a real number) trying to open and maintain a blog. But I feel like this is my year since I have so many things going on, not to mention there are so many things happening in my life right now. I've been a lot more paranoid on the stuff I post online because of mostly thoughts over identity theft and things being twisted to fit someone's own views and use my words against me if I get into another internet "debate". Keyboard warriors are a dime on a dozen in these parts and logic matters little to those who believe they are right no matter how much unbiased evidence a reasonable person presents them with. Facts don't matter if it doesn't support their views.
Just to sum things up a bit, without going into too much detail; I have been more proactive in my physical and mental health this year by switching to Kaiser and getting weekly therapy at a fun group called "Express Yourself". I started a few weeks ago and they've been somewhat supportive even though I still need a bit more time to get used to this group. Just this week before the group session (before the whole confidentiality clause comes to play that is, so the following information is not related to the group therapy.) that one of my fellow attendees was super into trains and got to learn some history of Los Angeles' public transportation system. Very fascinating stuff although the majority of the specific concepts have all but flown out of my brain by now. By now I am all but used to most of Los Angeles' public transportation systems within my area although I wish I had more funds to explore the city more. Los Angeles County itself is huge and even after living 20 plus years here I have yet to explore everything. (although there are places I would like to avoid for safety reasons.)
I'm still seeking employment since I've had no choice but to be terminated from my student lab assistant job, because of course I am no longer a student. My major is broad, being public health, but at this time my hopes are to find part-time that is flexible enough to fit my medical schedule and still give me enough time to also convene with my social peer group so I do have time to talk to people about things that are bothering me outside of group therapy. My original plans after graduation was to apply to Americorps or a similar program, however, my medical requirements are a bit higher on my need scale right now and I would not know how accommodating this program would be.
On the less serious (but still serious) side, I have gotten into casually sketching again and I've posted a few of them on Instagram. (/kaeosviernes is my real name profile on there) Most of them were inspired by my long-distance relationship girlfriend who asked me out last year though, of which I had a very obvious crush from our interactions. I'm looking forward to what the future brings for us, and hopefully once I manage to earn enough money from my endeavors we will get to meet one day. I was never really into relationships prior to this year until I had it a turning point in my life which I won't get into right now because it is a very personal reason.
From now on, I will just address my posts to blogger since I don't really know how many people will read my blog. I will keep this strictly in this type of tone because of potential employers looking into my presence on the internet.
(P.S if you're wondering over what I'd like to be addressed as if you aren't checking this blog out from myself linking you to this directly from a job application profile, I go by male pronouns since I will tend to get mis-gendered due to my androgynous presentation at times although I'd like to think I myself present myself in a masculine way.)
That's it for this post, and if I think of anything else to talk about I will edit, but I'll probably set up an alert to update this every week or so.
This is probably my bajillionth time (I know that's not a real number) trying to open and maintain a blog. But I feel like this is my year since I have so many things going on, not to mention there are so many things happening in my life right now. I've been a lot more paranoid on the stuff I post online because of mostly thoughts over identity theft and things being twisted to fit someone's own views and use my words against me if I get into another internet "debate". Keyboard warriors are a dime on a dozen in these parts and logic matters little to those who believe they are right no matter how much unbiased evidence a reasonable person presents them with. Facts don't matter if it doesn't support their views.
Just to sum things up a bit, without going into too much detail; I have been more proactive in my physical and mental health this year by switching to Kaiser and getting weekly therapy at a fun group called "Express Yourself". I started a few weeks ago and they've been somewhat supportive even though I still need a bit more time to get used to this group. Just this week before the group session (before the whole confidentiality clause comes to play that is, so the following information is not related to the group therapy.) that one of my fellow attendees was super into trains and got to learn some history of Los Angeles' public transportation system. Very fascinating stuff although the majority of the specific concepts have all but flown out of my brain by now. By now I am all but used to most of Los Angeles' public transportation systems within my area although I wish I had more funds to explore the city more. Los Angeles County itself is huge and even after living 20 plus years here I have yet to explore everything. (although there are places I would like to avoid for safety reasons.)
I'm still seeking employment since I've had no choice but to be terminated from my student lab assistant job, because of course I am no longer a student. My major is broad, being public health, but at this time my hopes are to find part-time that is flexible enough to fit my medical schedule and still give me enough time to also convene with my social peer group so I do have time to talk to people about things that are bothering me outside of group therapy. My original plans after graduation was to apply to Americorps or a similar program, however, my medical requirements are a bit higher on my need scale right now and I would not know how accommodating this program would be.
On the less serious (but still serious) side, I have gotten into casually sketching again and I've posted a few of them on Instagram. (/kaeosviernes is my real name profile on there) Most of them were inspired by my long-distance relationship girlfriend who asked me out last year though, of which I had a very obvious crush from our interactions. I'm looking forward to what the future brings for us, and hopefully once I manage to earn enough money from my endeavors we will get to meet one day. I was never really into relationships prior to this year until I had it a turning point in my life which I won't get into right now because it is a very personal reason.
From now on, I will just address my posts to blogger since I don't really know how many people will read my blog. I will keep this strictly in this type of tone because of potential employers looking into my presence on the internet.
(P.S if you're wondering over what I'd like to be addressed as if you aren't checking this blog out from myself linking you to this directly from a job application profile, I go by male pronouns since I will tend to get mis-gendered due to my androgynous presentation at times although I'd like to think I myself present myself in a masculine way.)
That's it for this post, and if I think of anything else to talk about I will edit, but I'll probably set up an alert to update this every week or so.
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